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金曜日, 10月 28, 2005

Mood = tired

Music = GetBackers + Namida no Hurricane

What else should i say? Although today is the official last day of school, I still have to go back to do PW!! I mean everyone has to go back.. but it's such a waste of time!! I would rather them have subject projects than such PW... I could have learn some more extra stuff... despite the fact that most of the stuff will be taken from the net... but this is not neccessary... ARGH!!

Haiz.. worst thing.. my OP cant make it.. my timing is around 5mins... terence is about 5.30 min... but Marinah and Zhu Xuan is practically 3.30min!!! ARGH!! This is bad!!! Very bad!! I must really help to do something... Yucks!! I have been thinking for the whole day.. but still nothing comes to mind.. so disgusted... argh!! braindrain!!

Besides this, I have my grade 6 theory exam tml!! in the afternoon some more... in newton... level 15... presidential room... i was so dotz when i recieved the letter... haiz... i tot i could relax a little after promo... but OP and this came... haiz...

Argh!! All these things are draining my time and energy!! I want time to watch my anime!! I also want time to maintain my webbie!! I am supposed to change the layout tml!! Argh!! haiz... TT____TT

10:16 午後

日曜日, 10月 23, 2005

Mood = lalalalal... relaxed....

Song = Meer + Emotion

Haiz... after WR is over.. OP and I&R comes... yucks... i am so disguested... OP sux sia... I&R also... no format at all... how they expect me to think... hehe.. lucky i approached Cindia for help.. i not i think i now think about how to write until morning liao wor.... lolx...

anyway.. i feel soo happy today~~ read SO many TF fics today... kya.... shiawase desu~~~ fufufu~~~ but then hor... until now.. i only read one super super good fic for TF/AtoJiroh/OshiGaku... cant find others nya~~ wish the search engine would work.. lolx..

yup.. i managed to do one layout for my webbie.. only about 60% complete though.... my stupid sis chase me away from the comp... my laptop dont have any adobe photoshop program... haiz.. hope i can get it install soo nya~~

and i think that's about it... no more to talk liao.. haiz... btw... I WANT A TEDDY BEAR FOR XMAS!!! lolx...

9:47 午後

木曜日, 10月 20, 2005

Mood = Relaxed? Uptight?

Music = Yzak + Shoot

Ok.. i finally got back the real overall results... bio=57% (C)... chem=61% (B)... phy=59% (C)... maths=68% (B)... gp=47% (C6)... hmm... nothing to say about my results nya~ but how i wish i would have done 1-3 marks better for each subject... then maybe my grades may look nicer like ABBB/C5.. hiaz.... but since it's over.. just let it be ba... i must learn how to look on the bright side... if not, depression will settle in soon...

Argh~ lessons are starting as usual... the 1st week after exam is all project work... and now... just for this week... lectures have covered Maths 'functions' and physics 'capacitance'.... dotz sia... anyway... my group have finally completed our WR... feel so relieve... we were all so worried yesterday... our group members are getting less by the day.. initially, BB wasnt in the group due to her 'yan shi zhen'... then terence got gastric yesterday.. so we were left with 3 poor members to complete the dying report.... in addition, our ST says that we still need to substantial more... so in the end... we spent 1-6pm in school doing the WR... me and Piggy then stayed up until 2am++ to finish the whole WR... fsuuuuuu~~~

Anyway, i am just glad than WR is finally over.. now it's OP time... hiaz... got so much to do... TT____TT

5:42 午後

月曜日, 10月 17, 2005

Mood = happy? sad? confused?

ok... my comp jammed and what i actually blogged earlier on got delete.. but i am very lazy to write again... anyway... i will just write the main point down... which is I GOT ALL MY RESULTS BACK TODAY!!!

Here's my results.. the one in the sq brackets is the overall results sia... i really dont know how I should react upon looking at it...

bio = 55% = C_____[57% = C]
chem = 60% = B_____[61% = B]
phy = 55% = C_____[59% = C]
maths = 71% = A_____[66% = B]
gp = 45% = c6_____[44.4% = D7]

Just look at my results!!! Arent they beautiful?? I really dont know how to react... sad or happy or what? the grades are sooo borderline.. i just merely hit that mark sia... anyway, i of course can be promoted lar... as long as i got 2 pass in 'A' subs can liao... BUT now the main prob is whether i can continue to take 4-subs- or not...

In AJ, to maintain 4-subs:
+ all the points for all the 4 'A' subs have to be 14 pts or less - I got 10 since my grades are BBCC
+ grade for gp has to be c6 or better...

I met the 1st criteria.. but miss the 2nd by 01.mark!!! DAMNIT!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10:26 午後

水曜日, 10月 12, 2005

Mood = vexed

People say if you want pple to be nice to you, you must first be nice to others... But it dont seem to apply to me... I tried my best to treat everyone around me nicely... joke with them... lame with them... sarcastic with them... in the end, what i have gained is just sorrow and depression... why cant the pple around me more be sensitive? maybe they cant.. what else can they do besides this? none... they are seem useless to me... we have SL project meeting just now... but the way i see them, i really feel like running out of the audi because it's so hard to breathe being in the same place as them... i find it very difficult to be with this class.. not that i dont like them.. i just find it hard to be with them... or should i say hard to communicate.. i really feel like making them shut up when they start to speak... they are soo noisy.. noisy until i really cant stand them... i really dont know what's with this class...

maybe from the beginning... it wasnt any of their fault.. maybe it's all mine... maybe i am the idiot who shouldnt even exist in this class... i cant get use to this college life even if i try very hard to do so.. i find no one to talk to... no one to turn to.. no one to comfort when i am down.. no one to help me up... somehow i want to go to eternal sleep.. somewhere i cant be hurt by anyone because no one is there.. somewhere i will feel free to talk to anything.. somewhere i feel that i am myself again... somewhere i can just free myself from all these depression and troubles...

sometimes i thought to myself.. what kind of person am i? someone nice? i dont think so.. i really dont know myself... somehow.. i have been hiding under this mask for such a long time that i lost my true self.. or should i say i am not myself in the first place... no matter who i meet, i will try to put up a smile... a smile that never lasts long... a smile that even me myself dont even know what i am smiling of... maybe i need to see a pshycologist soon... i am sick of being in depression.. but there's nothing i can do... maybe i can just wait for time to pass.. and maybe the cage around me will rot.. and i can be freed once more.. but when will this be?

4:42 午後

月曜日, 10月 10, 2005

Mood = Damn pissed off

Ok... let's start from the beginning.... I bought this Acer laptop on Saturday... it's a new release i suppose... so tada~~ here it is on my desk... Having a laptop, the first thing to come to my mind is to share my joy with the people around me... But then... it was a TERRBILE MISTAKE!!!

I told Peisi first and she congrats me happily and we continued to chat... then I told Cindia... still not bad... just that she say she would prefer Apple or another one brand.. so i wasnt that upset... because at least they did not make me like a fool... HOWEVER... today... I went back to school for the farewell assembly rehearsal of the ushers with another 3 persons... of course, i told them about my laptop... but one thing i didnt expect is that one of them say loudly that 'ACER NO GOOD!! DA POLY PPLE SAY NO GOOD DE!!'

Damn her lar... does she have to say that in front of me? does she have to have such big reactions to say my Acer laptop is lousy??? I was SUPER PISSED OFF after that and I hardly spoke one word to her for the rest of da day... And I also scold her through my nic --> so wat if poly pple say Acer laptop no gd? dun you dare say mine lousy!! shut ur big mouth up!!! BITCH!!

I dont care about her feelings.. if she is sad or not for calling her BITCH.. i dont care at all!! i hate pple who dont accept what i have!! i did mention before... PLS THINK BEFORE YOU TALK!!! And this is definitely not the last time... I warned you many many times... and again... after a while.. you are back to the same old self who keep hurt me without knowing!!

I am not going to talk to her the whole day tml!!!! HELL NO WAY!!!

10:40 午後

日曜日, 10月 09, 2005

Mood = unsure

Somehow, I have this feeling that I have a lots of friends whenever I see my hp phonebook... but somehow, I feel that I have none.... many a times I wanted to call someone to talk... someone who is willing to just let me continue to talk on and on... and nodding in agreement... I really dont know why they rebutt whatever I say and tell me that I should not be like thate... But why cant I be like that? Why cant I just pour out all my sorrow and you guys just keep your mouths shut and listen to me? Somehow, I feel weird... something indescriblable... something that I find people around me hard to understand... or should I say, they dont even understand... All I want is to dial anyone's number and start to talk freely... I tried speaking to people from jcs because I believe that they should know what am I going through... but I was proven wrong... all they did was to keep lecture me about what I have done wrong and how I should change... but i ask myself, "why should I change?"... who the heck are they to make me change? are they really worried about me like the way they say that they are worried for me over in msgs and conversation? sometimes, i doubt that this is true... they are just merely talking... what actions do they have? maybe they say i am seeking for attention.. maybe this is what i really am... someone who tries to get a tiny bit of attention... just a tiny bit... someone once says that i should adapt to the new environment... but then, i feel that i cant... why? because i was so used to have many people around me in my secondary schooldays... no matter where we go, we are always one big group... but somehow, in the new environment, i feel very lonely... lonely until i develop this feeling that none is concerned about me.... or maybe in reality, none really does...

10:45 午後

金曜日, 10月 07, 2005

Mood = HAPPY~~~

Otanjoubi Omedetou Tezu-chan!!!!!! お誕生日おめでとう!!! It's finally 7th October!!!! Whaoohoooo~~~ Got a present for you..... which is..... SYU-CHAN!!!!! *ahem* But not me.. I mean the REAL syu-chan~~ hehe~~ Actually I intend to draw a Q-version of Fuji, but seems like I have lost my touch of drawing... (<__<)

Anyway, here's for tezu-chan> :: pReSeNt A + B::

Ok, now after crazing all over about Tezu-chan, gonna talk about myself.... which is... MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! Kya~~ I have been waiting for this day for a VERY long time~~ I am NOT going to talk anything about the results nya~ I gonna get ALL of them back on the SAME day~~ Yucks... gonna have heart attack on that day...

Erm.. oya... after the exam yesterday, we all went to celebrate Melissa's b-dae at NYDC in Wheelock place... the place smell HORRIBLE~~ I cant stand the smell the moment i step in.. yucks.. I must go scold the manager to change the stupid smell.. do the smell until so high-class for what... I order Pasta Posh Spice, which MEANT to be the most spicy food among the other.. but to my disappointment, there is no taste of spicyness!!!! Yucks!!

*ahem* After the lunch, I went to walk around the whole building with Mel, ah Ma no. 2, Miss Hoho and some other people... (the rest all go walk walk liao).... Then I realised there is one some kind of anime-cum-softtoy-cum-dono-what-other-things shop just BESIDE nydc.. I was so diaox... Yup, they do sell some anime stuff like anime figurine (I saw GSD de nya), then all the cards (yu-gi-oh, pokeman and some others) and other sutff lar... BUT the worst thing is that... they sell HELLO KITTY!!! YUCKS!!!

Ahahah... then after that, all of us go to Cenileisure (forget how spell liao) to take neoprints.. Imagine one whole bunch of 15 gals squeezing inside the machine trying to get one shot... Then I saw this shop that sells lots of ANIME MERCHANDISE!!! It's a small shop, but still can make it.. I was so shocked sia... Heheh, but nothing much, most are GSD stuff... my sis almost killed me when I told her got one such shop.. *smirk*

Ok... Enough for this entry.. talk too much nia... just want to end by saying "I rocks!!!" cos I manage to finish episode 1-13 of Yu-gi-oh GX and 20-26 of MAR yesterday from 6pm onwards~~ Ok, gonna go update my webbie nya~~ ^____^

9:20 午前

土曜日, 10月 01, 2005

Mood = unknown.. undefined...

It's offically 1st October~~ Happy Children's Day~~ yay~~ Weechew still owe me my Fuji sig.. must bug him later.. lolx... AND it's my Mummy's b-dae !! I have not get her any present yet... Mug until I dont even have the time to go out... but the truth is - NO MONEY!!!! ok... me try to think of something...

Anyway, I have finished most of my mugging.. I am so shocked that I actually finish the WHOLE biology revision (lectures & tuts) in 1.5 days.. amazing ne~~ Now I have to plan what to do tml - I mean later when I wake up after 6-7hrs... Maybe I should flip through some Maths and Bio, as well as the most dreaded subject - GP...

Once again, I have thought of 101 stuff to do after my promos.. cant really list them out cos too long.. some include: tidy up my room esp my table which is totally 'submerged' under all sorts of rubbish; rearranging all my files in the comp; do up my whatever list that requires some doing-up; revamp my whole website - which is definitely a must... etc....

I mUsT sCoRe ALL As FoR pRoMoS!!!! gAnBaTtE!!! fOr ThE sAkE oF mY sEiGaKu JeRsEy!! wO yAO pIN lE wO dE lAO mING!!! jIaYoU!!! jIaYoU!!! jIaYoU!!! p.s. I want the jersey for the Japan Team... it's damn beautiful....

12:51 午前