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木曜日, 1月 26, 2006

Ok people.. I just wanna say something before I leave for Malaysia..

I STILL CANT GET THE PLUSHIE OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!

Anyway, here's my top 3 wishlist of plushies~~

1. EBAY - keychain Fuji brown bear plushie [url] - I just check and the bidding time left is less than 1 day!! I really want thins plushie!!! Can anyone pls pls pls pls pls pls pls get it for me??? The total cost is about SG$26... Ya... but pay in US$... if anyone wanna get it for, I will be SUPER GLAD!! and pls leave a msg at my taggie if you are getting for me k? I really hope that someone can get it for me!! I will return you the money (all excpet Bagua cos you still owe me one... so you are supposed the get this plushie for me.. and I really mean that you MUST get it for me!!!!)

2. YAHOO AUCTION - big version of the Fuji brown bear plushie [url] - erm.. if i cant get that keychain one.. i would really love to get this one.. anyway, the bidding time is stil left about 5 days.. ya.. but byt the time i am back in singapore, it will over... pathetic ne... and the cost is SG$60... shipping is about $5 i think... ya... so even if i have money, i dont have the card to buy... *sobs*

3. EBAY - keychain Fuji white bear plushi [url] - this is not for auction.. it's just straight click and buy it.. ya... it's also about the same price as the first plushie... the converted amount is also around SG$26... hahax!!

Yupz.. i think that's about it.. if i cant get this plushie.. my heart will die of heartache.. and i am not joking.. i wonder how many times i have break down into tears in school today.. haiz... so sad... i ahte to see the things but i cant be able to have it... *sobs*

3:12 午後

水曜日, 1月 25, 2006

Mood = Depressed
Music = WeiB Kreuz + Mellow Candle

IMPORTANT! PLS READ THE LAST 2 PARAGRAPHS OF THIS POST BEFORE YOU LEAVE MY BLOG!!

I am soo sad now... I cant find my leopard plushie.. maybe i should give up nya... so sad... *crys*

Anyway, I found more Fuji plushie keychain.. like the Xmas one I have.. I realised that my this reindeer Fuji is kinda lonely, only got he himself here alone.. so i was thinking of getting another keychain plushie.. ya... so i went searching around in ebay...

First, I found this brown bear Fuji plushie... it's 20% off.. so the cost is US$8... shipping payment is unknown... but the bid will be due in less than 2 days time!!! And where the hell I get someone to bid for me!!! *sobs* (it's shipped from usa)

Anyway, for those who are willing to help me get it, click here. I can pay you back. I just want this plushie! *crys even louder*

Another one is a white bear Fuji keychain plushie... with a seigaku collar... heheh... it's not on auction so means once i pay the money, it will be shipped to me... it also costs US$8... but shipment is US$8... (it's shipped from japan)

The last one is the big Fuji plushie.. should be a bear.. but dont look like one... cos it's pink in color... and has this sweet like blue-white ribbon around the neck... it costs US$15 but need to pay US$7 for shipping.. haiz.. so ex lor... this is too ex.. so maybe i wont be able to buy this... haiz.. pathetic... (it's shipped from usa)

I am soo sad now... i really want the plushies to accompany my poor little Fuji-chan here... *sobs* Can anyone PLS buy for me??????????????

I will be leaving for Malaysia tml in the afternoon. School wil end at 2.15pm for me. And I will make my way to the airport at around 4pm... Yes.. I will be going to Malaysia to celebrate my CNY... sorry to pple in Spore... wish you guys a Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Erm, oya, if anyone is willing to get the plushie for me, you can msg me. But I will receive the msg after sometime.. my roaming service in malaysia is kinda lagging and for short time span... ya... so pls pls pls if anyone is willing to get it for me, but if you do, you have to msg my by TML!! If not, i will be so heart broken... AND... I am not sure how many of you out there are willing to help me... but i will be very glad if you could... treat it as a request by a friend... *crys*

8:29 午後

火曜日, 1月 24, 2006

Mood = Stressed
Music = WeiB Kreuz + Beautiful Alone

Yay!!! Bio test is over!!! i can slack abit now!!! Muaahahha!!! the paper wasnt as tough as we thought it would be! It's still manageable somehow.. but this means that they will be stringent in their marking... haiz.. pathetic...

Anyway, I got back my Bio prac results. I was so shocked by the results... 27/40 is considered good by the tutor! *shock* But still, glad that I did well for this.. hehhe...

Oya.. tml chem test.. I already heck care... ahaha.. me too tired to study... *but why am I blogging at this time sia*

Heheh.. AND I AM DESPERATE IN NEED OF FUJI PLUSHIE!!!!!

I just realised I have forgotten to get my hands one this leopard Fuji plushie!! It's out like the beginning of last year! I bet it's already out of stock.. Can anyone sell it to me????????? Or can anyone find it for me? I really want this one... He's soo adorable!! I really want him!!! *sobs*

And I just check out Yahoo Audition. No one is putting the plushies on Aud... So sad... and I happen to come across to another... For the plushie in leopard skin, I found this http://www.fansdome.com/store/default.php?cPath=287_289_301 which dont have Fuji in the leopard costume... *sobs* I really want Fuji! But they have Tezuka there... can anyone buy for me Tezuka? Pretty pls??????

Another is here: http://www.fansdome.com/store/default.php?cPath=287_289_292. Which is like the reindeer keychain Fuji plushie I bought last year.. This is the large size one... *sobs* the big Fuji is available here... but not the leopard one...

I really feel like crying.. i want that leopard one!!! *whines*

11:30 午後

月曜日, 1月 23, 2006

Mood = Fainting
Music = GSD Suit Vol9 - Athrun Zala & Infinite Justice + Please

Meow... i finally finished studying my bio test tml.. dying arh.. so many names to rmb... haiz... i very scared tml i forgot... haiz... pathetic... tml will be so hectic for me... bio test.. pe... piano... *pengz*

ya.. then wed got chem test.. then i haven pack my luggage yet!!! haiz... i think i will really run here and there tml lor... diaox....

erm... nothing much to say.. oya.. my DA account got over 200+ visitors.. hehe.. my webbie is hitting on 16000 visitor count le~~ hehe~~ happy~~~

meow... i wanna got KKnM to buy my plushie~~ aww~ my fuji~~ fuji~~

ya.. and i just gotten my hand on GSD Suit CD Vol.9 featuring Athrun and Infinite Justice.. heheh... pity Athrun didnt sing.. I think those who sing is Meiling and Lunamaria.. yucks... heheh...

8:37 午後

土曜日, 1月 21, 2006

Mood = Sick
Music = Gundam SEED Destiny + Vestige

Feeling so sick now.. sorethroat.. headache.. whole body feel so warm and cold at times.. stupid flu bug... fly here and there... i also went under the rain yesterday when going home... worst, i wore sleeveless and shorts to shopping after school...

ya.. it was raining when i reach karlings' house... we were supposed to go shopping today.. but somehow she cant make it.. so we went out with shumin to get their frend's birthday present and my cny clothes... hehehe... i still have that i didnt enough cny clothes.. so i wanna get another pants...

we went to marina square... the whole place is huge after renovation.. so many shops.. see until our eyes went blur... ya.. and it's cold too... imagine me wearing so little.. haiz.. should have wore long pants and bring a jacket along... yes.. i was practically sneezing my way throughout the whole thing... pathetic... no enough tissu somemore.. haiz...

ya.. then we kinda shop from 5 to 7++.. i bough a new bag... just like my australia one... but half the size.. the whole thing is black with pink strips at the side.. and the "handle" is made of pink shiny sequines... i was like errr should i buy... cos i kinda bias towards pink... but the other colors available isnt very nice.. so i have to buy this one instead... black is easy to match anyway... hahah... btw, the original price was about $40+.. but cos it's under sale.. i bought it for $12... heheh...

we then had our dinner at mac at about 8pm.... then we went to suntec... i wanna go this fashion to get my pants... i spend kinda long time choosing... cos i wanted to get the 3/4 pants.. but luckily, i managed to land my eyes on this jean 3/4s... the design is quite nice... heheh.. with a butterfly on the pocket... hehehe... ya... i lazy to describe it in detail.. my head ache like mad..

i think that's about it.. gonna go do homework liao.. feeling so sick though i have taken my medi... haiz...

2:02 午後

木曜日, 1月 19, 2006

Mood = Jumpy
Music = Howl's Moving Castle OP theme

I am soo happy today~~~ lalalal~~~ firstly, before I said anything else, I must ask this first: who in the hell will cry if the person stare at the physic question for a very long time yet doesnt know how to solve? BINGO! The ans is ME!!! diaox... ok.. I cried last night.. I am really very stressed about my physic hmwk.. I dont wanna copy hmwk form anyone... but then when I tried to ask someone for help.. no one responds.. cant really blame them.. it was 11+pm though.. i am a nocturnal animal... hahax... Anyway... I somehow cried to bed.. and while crying... the method to do the qtn strike me!!!! Wooo~~ then I rushed out of my bed and started doing the qtn.. hehe... it was midnight at that time.. diaox...

Ok.. back to what I was saying just now.. I SURVIVED the pe lesson with my sprained ankle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cheers* 2 rounds warmup... running with Zhu Xuan.. telling her cold jokes all the way... hahax... Ya.. then 6 rounds in 17mins... but pathetically, I didnt make it in time... i just started my last round when the ret had completed it.. i am really mada mada dane... still got lots more to work on... hehe.. but after that, i am super hyper... hahahx....

AND....I kinda went alittle siao siao today... I have come out with my favs male anime characters... not all but... I have highlighted some of them only:
+ Fuji Syusuke [prince of tennis]
+ Tezuka Kunimitsu [prince of tennis]
+ Quatre R. Winner [gundam wing]
+ Uchihara Itachi [naruto]
+ Ranmaru Miura [dearboys]
+ Kazuki Fuchoin [getbackers]

Did you realised that half of them are the very quiet but very strong type? And the other half is the appeared-weak and like to smile but also very strong type? MUAHAHAAH!!!!!

Anyway, here's another HP fanart to share.. again featuring Sirius and Lupin~~

Hhehe~~ they look so kawaii~~~ and so sweet~~~ feeling like dunking them in my coffee.. LOLX...

9:09 午後

水曜日, 1月 18, 2006

I HATE IT WHEN I ASK A QUESTION AND YOU PEOPLE DONT EVEN BOTHER TO ANSWER ME!!!

WHAT'S THE POINT OF FINDING EXCUSES SAYING I LAZY TO TAKE!!!

DAMN YOU PEOPLE!!!

I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!!!

GO AND DIE!!!!!!!!

I AM SOO DISGUSTED!!!!!

YOU THINK YOU FINISH THE WORK EARLIER THEN YOU CAN IGNORE ME ARH!!!!

ASK HOW TO SOLVE THE QUESTION CAN DIE ISIT!!!!

IT WONT LOSE ONE PIECE OF MEAT FORM YOU RIGHT!!!!

YOU PPLE ARE SO ERXIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:12 午後

Mood = Happy
Music = Naruto + Go!!!

BIG NEWS!!! Got alot of shuai ge ge come to ajc!!! HAHAH!!! Ok.. just kidding... not really alot... remember the student exchange program last yr? Yuta and Shinji came to out school for quite a few weeks.. Yup.. and this time the whole class came!!! *shock*

They came in the afternoon to visit the school and look at our cca.. and most importantly to learn our culture.. They arrived in school during the last period of Chem lecture.. they were sitting on the gallery.. heheh.. I so sad.. cos i sitting on the top most 2nd floor.. cant see them..

BUt anyway... Interact Club today is orientation for JC1 students.. So, me, Shamini and Melissa and some other J2 and J1 are in the group.. and most of us are kinda high about them larz... I high Yuta and another high Shinji.. heheh.. we all huachi all the way...

Yup... Shinji and his frenz went passed me since we are going in the same direction towards the MPH... arh!! that gal.. she beat me in saying HI to Shinji.. haiz... But anyway.. glad to see him in such a close distance.. cos last year can only see him from far.. but not really far larz.. just 2 rows in front of my class... hohoho...

Yup.. then after that.. our group are outside the Audi doing some quiz... and YUTA PAST BY ME!!!! Whao.. hahah!! Then my huachi-ness level rises from 30% to about 78% liao... Hahaha!!

And hor... later on.. I was waving to Sonia on the 4th level.. she was the guide for some of the jap students lar... heheh.. And I siao siao de.. I waved very very long at Sonia.. and one of the Jap students even waved back at me!!! Now.. my huachi-ness level max liao!! *nose-bleed*

Heheheh.. ya.. that's about it larz.. Just wanna write down this about them.. dont think can get to see them again... haiz... hehehe...

And my ankle is healing now.. not as pain as the previous day.... but tml got PE arh... *sobs*

Here's a Harry Potter fanart featuring Sirius and Remus!! Yay!! My favs character in HP!!!

8:30 午後

月曜日, 1月 16, 2006

Music = Sad
Music = Naruto + Sadness and Sorrow

I sprain my ankle again... on the same leg as 2 years ago... sobs... it's damn pain sia.. i was just under my block.. and i kinda look at something at the side.. then forgot to see the front.. then i walk out of the pathway.. in the end.. i step on the steps.. and tadaa.. sprained ankle!!

Haiz... so pathetic arh me... firstly.. i realised i will always injure myself if i got back to amk.. or just before going overseas... this time.. i didnt go back to amkss .. yet i still sprain my ankle nuder my block!!! WTH!!! My mum almost straggled me when i told her i was injured... haiz... "cny so near liao... you still injured... really dont know how to take care of yourself lehz.. how to be independent in the future... blah blah blah..."

Now the pain more terrible then before... I wonder why... and there seems to be a little swelling.. but luckily it wasnt as bad as 2 years ago.. i sprain and dislocated my ankle.. causing my leg to be like an elephant like that... haiz.. suay arh me... *sob*

worst... tml got pe arh.. and i dont think they accept parent letters lor.. damn them.. means i gotta do makeup liao lor.. andhtye say makeup is like running 12 rounds larh.... i dont want!! but what to do... *crys*

10:45 午後

日曜日, 1月 15, 2006

Mood = Thinking
Music = Shaman King + Brave Heart

Confession: If I dont become a bioengineer, what else can I be? Will I be able to live up to the expectations I had for myself? Such thoughts kinda came to me after I witnessed or went through some things:

Yesterday, some of us went to VSA to do CIP... and we met this female teacher who take cares of this physically disabled girl named Sarah.. me and Zhu Xuan interacted with her practically throughout the whole thing... we were supposed to teach these disabled children handicraft aka. making butterflies using magazine paper... but somehow, me and Zhu Xuan ended up teaching the Indian teacher to make butterflies... anyway, she praised me for being able to make beautiful paper butterflies cos the color combination is good... then Zhu Xuan was like "I cant make such beautiful butterflies." But after a while, Zhu Xuan was praised by the teacher for being about to make use of the scissors to cut out the side view of human heads beautifully.. I was thinking "I cant do that." Then what the teacher said kinda surprised or should I say enlightened me... she says that everyone is definitely good at something and you should be proud of what you are able to do but others cant...

Just now.. I was cutting out articles for my gp homework... and one of them is about exam meritocracy and talent meritocracy... Singapore is a country that put alot of emphasis on exam meritocracy... One has to do and score well in exams to be able to qualify for the next level of education... However, I feel that the more I study for exams.. for qualifications.. for certificates.. I seem to forget all the things I really once like to do... In the past, I really love to draw.. I can even draw during exams.. But now time and studies have made me forgotten about my passion to draw.. In the past, I aimed to be a fashion designer.. cos I can draw and I enjoy designing clothes... But now, my once so-called ambition has slowly mutated and evolved into what people known as "bioengineer"... what people known as "able to achieve great things".. In the past, I really really love to draw.. but now, this passion.. this ambition... has been sacrificed to meet the society's expectations... The thing that could have make me happier is now gone... My true happiness has been buried under this exam meritocracy...

Sometimes... I wish that I wont have grown up.. then I could still keep my ambition to be a fashion designer... Even now after this was forgotten as time flies by.. I still finds that being a fashion designer sounds more heart-warming to me.. In many people's eyes, I am a student who aims to achieve good grades.. But isnt everyone like me? We have to give up what we hopes for something that we didnt wish for... I dont feel anything for science.. it's just a mere curiosity for me to take up science.. I wanted to know more about why things are this way.. But I failed to notice that the more I pursue science, the more I am giving up on the things I once had... But it is ironic to say that I cant give up on science now.. I have given up too many too much things to come this far.. And I really need time to build up my passion again to designing clothes...

Haiz... I wonder what can I really be.. I was thinking... maybe I continue to pursue my ambition as a bioengineer... then until the time is right.. I will continue to pursue my real ambition... as a fashion designer... I am really very pathetic...

Here's another fanart I love very much...

Hopefully.. things will turn out good for me... at least I will be happier...

8:08 午後

金曜日, 1月 13, 2006

Mood = Slacking
Music = Naruto + Sadness and Sorrow

Today is the day when my timetable is the shortest and is able to come home early.. meow~~ Anyway, school was kinda slack for me... 1st hr is Physic... then break... then 3 periods gp tut.. whao... we were like looking at compre... and doing all the "use your own words" thingy... then is 1 hr of Biology lect on Transport in plants... about the xylem etc... then 1hr lunch.. then 2 hrs of Chem prac...

Today's prac is a miracle! Why? Cos we are doing pairing work.. The practicale we are doing today is bade-hydrolysis involving reflux heating.. hehehe.... anyway.. the crystals really looking very nice in the saturated solution.. however, once it was taken out and dried, the whole thing become some sort of "dried flat silver seaweed"... And the percentage yield for this week isnt that well.. or should I say... it was unbelieveable... I got 2.80%!!!!!!!! That amount is so minute!!!! *faint*

Anyway.. we got back the crystals from the last practical lesson... I wanted to take a photo on it and put it here.. but somehow.. I dont feel like pouring it out of the plastic bag and into a smaller container... I dont have nice nice container here though... ^^;;

Erm yup.. if you have noticed.. I have removed my radio blog.. cos there was this news.. probably yesterday.. about putting songs as bgm on the blogs... these songs have to be licensed in order to be able to continue to host there... pay $1000 for a year if you have 10 songs or less... $5000 for 11-49 songs... $10,000 for more than 50 songs... I was like (O__O)

Yes.. though they mention that they would probably give student's discount.. but where do you think students are able to get the money from? Parents will give a definite "no".... Well.. if they make it like a dollar per song... so about $10 for a month for 10 songs.. I would probably be able to afford it...

However.. they do have the reasons for doing so.. this is to deter piracy = illegal music downloads... Haiz... Yup.. I guess I will just say until here... So no more radio blog for me.. but a little midi as bgm should do nya~ Hopefully~

Eto.. I have also changed my taggie.. hopefully this one will be better... How I wish the previous taggie I used was able to have archives for free.. then I wont need to take the trouble to look for other taggie...

And.. I made some changes here and there.. just look out for them nya~

All I can say to them is 'MADA MADA DANE!" *run away to do homework*

4:08 午後

木曜日, 1月 12, 2006

Mood = Tired
Music = Shirota Yuu + Owari na ki STAGE

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today is such a tiring day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I only reached home at 7.30pm!!! DAMN IT!!! SO TIRED!!!!

Early morning... no assembly... go straight to audi for chem lect for 1 hr... then pe lesson is next... due to the wet condition, the venue changed to the hall... for warming up, 10 rounds around the hall non-stop with no gaps and at top speed!!!! *faint* next... 100 skipping... 20 pushup... 100 skipping... 20 situps... tonnes of aerobic exercise... then 1 BIG round around left right up down the school buildings... end of it.. DEAD....

break for 1hr30min... go to LT for maths power series test... total 4 qtn... but last qtn is 12 marks.. me managed to do all... but last 10mins left to stare at the last part of the last qtn.. it's 3 marks!!! i stare and stare... nothing goes ot my brain... in the end.. left blank... 3 marks is 12%.... *faint again*

back to class for 1hr of gp tut.... diaox... our tutor gave use 20+++ pages of notes... on skills to answer compre... tips of essay... AND 100+++ pages of past year school prelims paper... *faint*

then... last 1 hr... physic tut... do physic mini project demo... the whole thing quite interesting...

+ my group on fluid dynamics = blowing between 2 dangling platics cups cause them to come together...
+ the guys group is on frictional force = about pulling out the table cloth without moving the cups on the table...
+ shirley's one on oscillation and resonance = strings of the same length oscillate at greater angles than the rest...
+ hoying's group on bouyancy = putting coke and coke light can drinks into a tank of water and see which float...
+ yuwen's group on buoyancy-cum-friction = put a marble in a stoppered boiling tube half-filled with salt and shake....

then... school ends.. but need to stay back for gp diagnostic test.... which is practically essay... so we wait wait wait rot rot rot until 5.30pm when the test begins... the qtns are quite ok.. but i dont really have the confidence to write... cos most although I know about them, I didnt have much info to write on... there are 5 qtns... on globalisation, global environment probs, music, terrorism and forgot the last... I picked global environment prob to write on... the qtn is "do you agree that it is the responsiblity of the richer countries to tackle with the global environment problems?"

yup... i managed to write full 2 pages somehow.. but i wondered why my words seem to get smaller and smaller from the front to the back.. hehhehee... my tutor will need a magnifying glass to decepher what I wrote... hehe... but then... I dont think I will do well for this... I have an intro, 2 main points, 1 rebuttal and 1 conclusion... this sounds fine to many but not to me... I think I am crapping throughout... and at the end.. I realised that I wrote to specific... meaning... I use examples to write instead of starting the sentence with a general statement... I should have write like what have the richer countries done and give eg.. and vice versa for the poorer countries... but I didnt... I wrote the specific stuff the richer countries have done and similarly for the poorer countries... I think I am really gonna fail this test... *crys*

another thing is the alpha program... i think the school siao de!! they only choose students who have at least one grade A in their final promo results... bagua got FOCA... wtf.. like that also enter alpha... yuning got CEDA... at least better.. also enter alpha.. me is BBCC lor!!!! WTF!!! Me get kicked out of alpha just because I dont have a grade A in my results!!! where got such things!!!! *crys*

I really feel so sad now... My chem flunk... maths should be ok... gp died on me... *crys loudly*

8:13 午後

水曜日, 1月 11, 2006

Mood = Depressed
Music = FMA + Ready Steady Go!

I am very sad today.... the rain makes me even more depressing... haiz... actually to many pple, they might think this is nothing big deal.. but i just wanna pour out my sorrows here...

First of all... my new GP tutor... not that he's bad... he's kinda good too.. he seems to like number 3 alot... and at the end of the lesson.. he will always ask all the number 3s to do alot of thing... and.. unfortunately, I am also one of the number 3s... last week... I was told to prepared a 2-min speech on Monarchy... this is no big deal.. today... I was told to do a mindmap on the comphre essay given and hand in tml!!! *faint*

But tml I got alot of tests and things going on!!! I got PE... eww... so disgusted... Then I have Physic demo on the Bounilli's Principle.. i think I spell wrongly though... anyway.. this was something to do with fluid dynamics lar... Then I got Maths Power series test.. all the forumlas so many! I will memorise like siao.. In the evening.. I will have GP test... eww... tml is soo disgusting!!! Then next week probably will have Bio - respiration and ecology test.. Sianz...

Anyway... today alos just have Chem JC1 test.. Haiz.. I study like didnt study like that.. I totally forgot how to do chem.. I also cried during the test... The we have self-marking... I already know I will not pass.. and really I didnt pass... *crys*

I really like have chem-test phobia sia.. how... *crys even harder*

Inui!!! Pls use your data to save me!!!! *crys*

6:45 午後

火曜日, 1月 10, 2006

Mood = High
Music = Kajiura Yuki + Ship of Fools

Heheh~~ It's triple posting today... I think I have gotten crazy liao... Anyway.. me and Qi ok liao... hoho~~ Weird nya.. suddenly ok liao... haha... stupid me~~

Anyway, I was looking through athena8's LJ.. and I found this site... Glittergraphics... They provided us with the codes for glittery fonts~~ There are different types of styles of glittery fonts.. and here are some of those that I have chooen:

Style 2:

Style 5:

Style 9:

Hehehe~~ I kinda like stlye 5.. but pity it's in purple.. I think it would be better if it's in baby blue~ haha~~pls tell me which is nice nya~~ But dont tell me any pink fonts are nice k? I kinda bias pink color... fufuf~~

Anyway, does anyone find the following fanart familiar?

BINGO!!! It's Howl from Howl's Moving Castle!! Did anyone of you get correct? If you dont, pls give yourself a knock on your head~ The clothes has already been so obvious liao~~ HAHA!!! Ah, I almost forgot to say, this is done by mayu-chan~~~ Her drawing not bad nya~~

4:18 午後

Mood = unsure
Music = Kajiura Yuki + A Song of Storm and Fire

It shall be double posting today... Finally we managed to finish talk about the Physic project thing... I know I am kinda harsh towards Shiqi cos she kinda ps us last night.. So, i kinda spoke very harshly to her during the convo while discussing the project...

After that... I went to speak to Zhihao.. asking him whether if they play until very late last night and why Qi forgot about it... He said that Qi didnt sleep well past few nights and that's why she fell asleep and didnt come online... Haiz.. I know she didnt fell asleep on purpose... but then, I still feel angry about this.. she knows she is very tired and need an early night.. but she didnt tell us that she's tired... If not, we would have the meeting today... and I wont be ps.. and I wont be this harsh.. and nothing of this would have happened..

Hiaz... frankly speaking.. I am very scared of her lar... Especially her words... I really dare not be by her side.. she speaks rather frankly.. and sometimes, though she didnt mean it, I am kinda hurt by what she says.. I have forgotten what she said to me.. but somehow, my body reacts out of fear... Hence, if I am with her, I will either try not to respond to her or speak rather harshly to her... I am really scared of what she says... According to Zhihao, he says this is "a mask of protection".. maybe what he says is true ba.. Qi didnt mean it...

Haiz... come and think of it... I think this whole thing is very stupid..I also dont know how it comes about.... Maybe I am the one wrong in the 1st place ba... maybe I think too much into what Qi says... maybe I am too sensitive liao ba... I am not sure if Qi will read my blog... I just wanna say

对不起！！！

1:03 午後

Mood = Sleepy
Music = Shiina + Moonlight

I know this is mad blogging earlier in the morning... But I really need a place for me to vent my anger...

We are assigned to do this Physics Mini Project and present it on the coming Thurs..Yes the Thurs we are gonna sit for the Maths and GP test... Then, my group consist of me, Shamini, Wene and her....

We agreed to meet up at 10pm online to discuss the writeup we are supposed to work on... Shamini came at around 9.45pm... she just came back from tuition.. Since only have the both of us, we tried to search for Bernoulli's Principle first... Then we found one site that explains a little bit of the Bernoulli's Principle using formula.. We think it was quite nice and can be use in our writeup...

Then Sham went offline cos she haven had her dinner yet.. and told me to ask Wene to msg her if Wene comes online... So, I was there waiting and waiting and waiting.... I got kinda fed up cos it's already like 10.30+pm and no one has came online yet.. I was getting really irritated by such things.. So, I decided to msg Wene and her... Of course, I was very irritated at the time so my msg wasnt phrased in a good manner... One can see all the anger I had while typing the msg...

Anyway, after a while, Wene replied. She said she haven reach home!! I was so shocked.. I mean the time she replied was like going to 11pm!! Then about 11+pm, Wene came online... Then she told me that she only left shcoll at 8.30pm and went for dinner.. and only reached hom now... Well, I cant possibly blame her... She was involved in J1 Orientation for the whole of last week and she kinda missed alot of lesson.. and she was also in charge of the CCA Carnival tml... she she will be missing even more lessons.. So, I think it wil be unreasonable for her to really do the project with us.. Then I thought maybe let her be the printer to print the writeup ba... I shall go ask Sham abt this..

NOW... that person... ewww!!! I am so disgusted by her attitude!!! What type of person she is arh??? If she so tired and wanna slp, at least send a msg!!! Dont make me wait here like an idiot!!! Argh!!! I was damn angry over her!! Worst, she HAVENT even contributed anything to this project yet... Yesterday, she came smiling to school and says "I yesterday whole day went out shopping mah... so I didnt do..."

WTF!!! 这种人都有！Shamini 都有去找好不好？没有去找就算了,她还放我们鸽子！我最讨厌这种人！为什麽世界上会有这种人？态度恶劣到要死！

8:48 午前

月曜日, 1月 09, 2006

Mood = Black
Music = FictionJunction ASUKA + Everlasting Song

Yay!! This is my 8th blogskin and 56th post!!! I felt so bad towards Yuning cos I told her that my blogskin is gonna be the 15th today... I mixed it up with my webbie... Haiz.. Cham arh... I also changed the songs in my radio blog... about half of the songs in the original list is kept.. the rest are new.. and I discovered that all are anime songs... diaox.. ^^;;

Anyway, this skin so cool sia!! I think I can going towards black for this period... Too much depressing stuff for me... It's just the beginning of the year!!! Argh!!! Me so fast settle into depression liao... Pathetic...

I kinda like the girl in my skin... She's holding onto a rabbit soft-toy... and she seems kinda lonely... as if waiting for someone to pick her up... I think I am just like her... Holding onto my stuff.. waiting for someone to come around to play with me.. and hopefully... the person will bring me out of darkness into the bright world... (TT___TT)

Haiz... I just realised that I am becoming more like Mizuki.. I keep use my fingers to twirl my hair... I just cut my hair like less than 1 month.. and it's super layered.. *wonder if anyone notice*... so when I let down, it seems very long... but when I tie up, it looks suepr short.. heheh.. maybe that's why i keep play with my hair...

Another thing.. when I was in the school toilet... the one near the canteen... My homeroom now shift to the 1st floor of the container block.. so I got to use the toilet beside the canteen.. The toilet got one about full-length mirror.. And just now, when I look.. I find that I kinda look good in aj uniform... not eh design.. but my size.. I look so small size in the uniform.. maybe cos my uniform is big ba... hahax~~~

I think I am really crapping to cheer myself up nya... So sad... after tml.. there will be like 4 tests waiting for me.. I really wanna cry liao... Wed got chem test on 5 JC1 topics.... Hiaz... Thurs got Maths test.. at least this is still ok... it's on SDL Power Series... But on the same day I got GP essay test in the afternoon.. I dont really have the confidence to write essay sia... haiz... (TT___TT)

I find that I kinda like FictionJunction ASUKA's Everlasting Song... The lyrics are kinda meaningful to me... It's got the very "happy and bright" atmosphere...

あの時君が見てた夢を追いかけて
僕等は今遠い道を歩き始めてる

君の目に映ってる世界の姿を
無口な指で分け合いたくて
一人にはしないから

君の為に少しでも優しくなれたかな
涙を微笑みに変える強さを僕は
まだ知らない

何よりかけがえのない君への想いが
繰り返してた時の流れを
未来へと変えて行く

手を取って二人で奏でる切ない音楽が
いつかは一つに解け合い
終わらないメロディー
空に響く......

あの時君が見てた夢を追いかけて
僕等の胸を繋ぎ続ける
終わらないメロディー
you’re my everlasting song...
come fly with me......

Those in red are those parts I love best~

Anyway... I think that's about it for today... Hopefully.. I will be more happier tml... Here's another TF fanart by KAIN~~~

6:53 午後

金曜日, 1月 06, 2006

Mood = Lazy
Music = Bon Jovi + It's my Life

Today is a pathetic yet fun day... what kind of description is this, eh?

We had Bio MCQ test in the morning before lunch.. I was kinda panicky over it because I only gone through my whole JC1 notes until up to photosynthesis.. I say "gone through" not memorise... So I spent my break in the library with Yuwen to finish respiration and some ecology... Then just before the test starts, I quickly flipped through my ecology notes... However, this MCQ paper is not easy at all!!! Though there are some simple ones, most are hard and required alot of thinking.. In the end, we had to complete 42 qtns in about 4omins... Pathetic sia... =o=

Anyway... back to the fun part... we had Chemistry practical after lunch.. This time it's on organic synthesis and we are gonna deal with recrystallization this time!! Initially, after I had completed all the steps to make the solution saturated, I need to wait for crystals to form... However, after 10-15mins there is still nothing form.. So my chem teacher helped me to get a "seed" from Delia and dipped into my solution...

Guess what!!! Crystals immediately began to form!! I was soo happy to see my whole solution are crystallizing!! Then amount of crystals I had yielded is much much much more than I have expected.. Maybe because I have added too much hot water which lead to adding more ethanol, and hence more saturated solution... Hoho~~ My percentage yield of pure crystals is 89% while Marinah was like 120%... (o__O)

My teacher keep looking at my crystals and say "not bad"~~ Hahax~~ So happy~~ It's really funny to make crystals though the process is very tedious~~ It makes me think of Yuushi's Kesshou~~ (=^^=)

Once I got home, I slacked until now... I kept reading fics.. I dont understand why I keep coming across kat-tun fics when I was searching for my TF fics... weird nya~ But still I have found another 5-8 new authors~~ Still reading what they have written though~~ Hoho~~

Here's another fanart~~ I think it's by Akira Hojo from one of the TF doujinshi~~

11:37 午後

木曜日, 1月 05, 2006

Mood = Curious??
Music = Ueto Aya + Pureness

Guess what? I am able to run finish 8 rounds during PE lesson!!! I am soo shocked by my determination to finish the rounds!! I was thinking about running only 7 rounds but I convineced myself to finish the 8 rounds!! Whao~~ I cant believe that I can run non-stop without feeling too breathless!!! (O__o)

In addition, I realised that if I can able to not think about running, I will tend to run faster... What kind of logic is this huh? Anyway... I discovered that counting the number of steps does make me keep my mind off running... I think I have counted more than thousands of steps~~ Hoho~~ Anyway, I am still relieved that I can finish my 8 rounds though I took more than 20+ mins to finish 2.4km. My aim is to run finish 6 rounds in less than 20mins!!! Hoho~~~ (=^^=)

Anyway, here's another fanart that I have found:

Kawaii ne~~~ The hamster version of Tezuka and Fuji!! Aww~~~ So kawaii~~ But I prefer them as fox and bear~~ >__<

5:35 午後

水曜日, 1月 04, 2006

Mood = High~
Music = Soukyuu no Fafner + Shangri-La

Today's school is still the same... But I almost die halfway.... The day started off with 2 maths tut which is like 1 hr... later followed by 1.30hr of GP lecture and tut... Until here, my head ache like siao... I cant imagine the time at that time is only 10.30am!! Argh... Then after that, we have 1 break... then continues with 2hrs of Bio and Chem tut.... lastly 1hr of Chem lecture... Cham arh... Now all the lecture teach new things... Only 2nd day then my head bursting liao.... (=o= lll)

Anyway... today no cca.. so school ended at 1.45pm... hoho~~ I went to my LJ com and I found out that many pple are playing the lastes Tenipuri PS2 game "Gakuensai no Oujisama". I almost shocked when I see the graphics~ Fuji and Tezuka kakoi desu!! I have kapo some stuff from mizuki and my LJ com... Some wmvs that mizuki have recorded including the OP and screencaps taken by furokugal~ I have them uploaded in savefile.com~ HOHO~~ The password is aibahiroki!! mUahaha!!! Here's the link: Gakuensai no Oujisama.

Meow~~ I found more freshnet author links~~ They write the TF fics soooo sad~~ *crys* There's is one that is about Tezuka's Dad trying to break up Tezuka and Fuji... The whole character relationship inside very complicated.. Ryoma got injured during tournament then he went to Tezuka for comfort... Then Fuji very sad cos Tezuka is taking care of Ryoma... so whenever Fuji saw both of them together, he will keep staring at Ryoma.. Then Tezuka misunderstood that Fuji like Ryoma... Then Momoshiro also thought Tezuka like Ryoma.... But Ryoma in fact like Momo.. but he misunderstood Momo with Ann... cos Momo went to Ann for comfort... Then the story goes on~ It's quite nice actually~ In front sad like siao... but the ending not bad lar~~ hoho~~ (just realised that I have written alot of "then")...

Here's the cover of my notebook~~

Very kawaii ne??? Tezuka and Fuji~~~ *spread TF love around*

Ok.. enough for today... gonna do hmwk liao~~~ (@__@)

7:54 午後

火曜日, 1月 03, 2006

Mood = Still Jumpy
Music = Sengoku Kiyosumi + Everyday

Hehe... I kapo this from Cindia's blog... This is regarding which tree I am based on my birthday...

Weeping Willow (the Melancholy)
--> Likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner, loves to make others laugh.

I think this is kinda accurate me nya~ I do like to be stress-free.. I am always so stress-up for school so I will always try to enjoy my breaktime~ Yup, I do love my family life - it's more relaxing than in school~ I do have a lot of dreams nya esp with my fuji~ Hoho~ Erm, I dont think the word 'attractive' can be used for me~~ (=o=)

I do get very emotional at times nya~ Yes I do love anything beautiful such as Fuji!!! Me being musically-inclined quite true - now I piano grade 7 liao~ I do love travelling but no money arh~ Me very restless meh? Like a saru? *ukee*

Erm, I shall skip "capricious" cos I dont know the meaning... lolx... I am honest meh? Ok lar.. quite to some extent though I always cheat in running rounds~ Hoho~ Hmm.. I do get influenced easily esp by pple's words... Me very hard to live with when pressured meh? Cos I will stress everyone around me? Maybe ba... T__T

Sometimes demanding ne... Possibly.. Like I always ask weechew for presents.. hoho~~~ Good intuition arh? Not too sure about this nya~ Eto, me suffers in love until I find someone loyal? This is quite true for me ba~ Maybe my expectations too high ba~ That's why I cant really find anyone good ones? *being bash up*

What is the meaning of steadfast partner? Good or bad ah? Means I go into relationship quickly arh? Or means what????? @__@

The last one is to make others laugh... hmm.. got to consider... maybe ba~ Cos I very lame de~ So tends to make pple laugh? Hahax!!

So.. that's about it... Like too long liao nya~~ Hoho~~ ^^;;

9:33 午後

Mood = Jumpy
Music = 3 Guava Trio + Brand New Day

It's really nice take a shower immediately after I got home from school.. feel so much refreshed... Today is the first day of school or should I say the school reopens today... Then only thing I could say about today is:"It dont feel like the 1st day of school to me at all!!!"

Of course.. today is also kinda fun... I can get to meet my classmates~ Just wanna say that the class may not be as bad as I thought they are... There are really some pple in there who still cares for me nya~ Like Yuwen, Shamini and Zhu Xuan~ They kinda make my day more lively~ ^o^

Anyway, I only got my timetable in the morning and I am kinda horrified. All the lesson periods were changed to 30 mins instead of the usual 45 mins due to the new education system... So we ended up having 2 periods for every tut and lecture... Of course, practical lesson will be 2hrs... =o=

Here's my timetable:
> Mon - 3.45pm end
> Tue - 5.15pm end
> Wed - 1.45pm end but have cca later
> Thurs - 2.15pm end
> Fri - 2.25pm end

Back to the topic, we have like dont know how many new sets of notes.. Maths... Bio... Chem.. Phy... I almost faint again when I see the notes. Make me feel so stressed and got the feeling to mug again... *dies*

Anyway... I had afternoon PE at 4.15pm... the sun is still the same as it is at noon... super hot... can BBQ me liao lor~ We had height and weight measurement~ Guess what~ I grew taller by 1cm and slim down 1 kg!!! Yay!!! >__<

But later... we had to run rounds... what to expect from AJC PE lessons.. besides run is run and still run... 2 rounds as warm-up.. then another 6 rounds... unfortunately, I didnt manage to complete the whole 2+8 rounds.. I only did 2+3 rounds... I was going on to my 4th round when the other male teacher called me out... Did I look that pale? I was running that slow so I didnt exercise throughout the whole holiday (unless you call shopping an exercise) and my knees hurt... AND the worst news is that the NAPFA standards change for most of the items!! So means that I am destined to fail my physical test this year~~

Erm... I am not sure if I should say this here... but I am not sure how to start... it's about her.. you should know who the person I am referring to... I dont think I am ready to face her yet... It's not that I dont want to talk to her.. but I dont really know how to start a conversation with her... Some part of me wants to forget about those unhappy times and just be friends back again.... However... somehow, I dont seem to act so... I am kinda trying to get her out of my life.. trying to erase her existence... just treating her as if she's not there... dont ask me why am I like this... I also dont know...

Maybe sometimes... some things take time to forget... but I doubt I will forget about this... In the past, I used to have a "cold war" between me and pohpoh because of some causes which I doubt it's not any of our fault... but this time... this seems to be different... I dont want to be a friend with someone who hurt me... cos if there is a 1st time.. there will definitely by a 2nd...

I think that's enough for today... Gonna go eat dinner and have piano lesson later... Haiz... +__+

6:16 午後

日曜日, 1月 01, 2006

Mood = Happy!!
Music = Fuji Syuusuke + White Line

<- Omg!! Just look at this pic!! Aiba Hiroki!! The actor for Fuji Syuuske in Hyoteimyu!! I melt the moment I saw this msn icon!! Aww~ He smiles soo sweet~~ Just like Fuji~~ And he has got a bear in a cup there too~~ Omg~~ *faint* (⌒▽⌒)ノ"

My webbie rox~~ New layout~~ HOHO~~

Anyway... the first day of the year is ending soon in another couple of hours... Personally, I feel this year filled with rather lots of events here and there... Happy, sad, exciting, depressing and all sorts of other events... Continue reading for the details of my life in jc...

In the beginning of the year, everyone was kinda relaxed one way or another~ Since O levels results are only released in March~ So in the 1st 3 months, we have fun and joy... Those who share the same anime interests as me, such as Cindia and Peifeng, are also in AJ... Though we arent in the same class, being in the same school is also not that bad...

After that.. results are released... although I am quite happy with my results since I could continue to study in AJ, I still feel kinda sad... cos Cindia and Peifeng are going to other schools... So, it's kinda sad for me and for them too... (￣w￣)

I know it will be hard to find pple who share the same interest with you in AJ unless you really go interact with them.. But the whole year is kinda hectic.. the teachers are also emphasizing that we only have another 1+ year to work hard before sitting for A levels... (￣m￣*)

In my current 09 class, I know of some pple who saw anime, such as Zhu Xuan, Pei Yueng, Delia and Yunlong.. However, they arent like me who watch alot of anime... They are more of the "focused" type whereby they only watch 1 or 2 anime.. except for ZhuXuan ( I think she know about 1/3 of what I know?)... Somehow, I feel that talking to them is kinda limited.. It's hard to introduce anime to them.. they are kinda "fixed" with the anime they watch.. so sad nya.. (~.~'')

Not long after we have gotten our results, NAPFA starts... It's a total nightmare for me!! I am really veyr abd at physical activites!! I dont have the stamina to run at all... *sobs* But anyway, I managed to do well in my 5 items... Finally, the day for running the 2.4km comes.. I can still remembering how I ran non-stop for 6 rounds and finally running real hard at the last 200m... I almost thought I would faint when I crossed the line... I was breathing reallly hard... When the results was annouced, I was really over the moon... I PASS BY 0.02 SECS!!! That's probably one of the best things that happened to me in AJ... I have been failing the running for the previous 3 years... BUT I PASSED!!! o(*^O^*)O

In around April/May, we are divided into groups to do our Project work... I was grouped with Bingrong, ZhuXuan, Marinah and Terence.. However, halfway through the whole thing, Bingrong was out of the group.. Not because she didnt do her work.. but because she was diagnosed with "yan shi zhen" aka "food-hating disease"... So, she got to spend quite a long time in hospital for treatment.. We really felt sorry for her... Nevertheless, life has to go on.. We continued with 4 persons... The meetings etc were horrible except for the times when we were laming and telling cold jokes.. which is practically about 60-80% of our meeting time... (>o<#)

Then, it wasnt long before the midyear starts... I didnt did as well as I excepted... My Bio and Phy are alright, I got a B for each of them... But my Chem and Maths are really terrible until I really cry... I got a E and D respectively.. I didnt want such results... They dont meet my expectations at all... At that time, I really feel that I am in a deep pit... The results ares oo near failing point... I really wonder how am I gonna get promoted with these type of results...

Once midyears are over, the teachers started to work us harder... Then promos came and went away... My results are still considered not bad somehow... I got B for Chem and Maths, while a C for Bio and Phy... Quite a good achievement nya~ After that.. Project work came and went too.. And the school year ended here for me...\(o^^o)/

Here's the end of the life I had in AJ... nothing really much though... But of course... there are lots of memorable moments in my first year of jc...

1. Visit to New Zealand -> play with real snow for the 1st time in my life~
2. Got my own external HDD 60gb -> contain all my anime songs etc
3. Received lots of presents on my birthday -> Must thank all those who gave my these wonderful presents
4. Having my own personal laptop -> something which I had wished for for years
5. My webbie turns 1 year old -> my hard work paid off
6. Great Xmas -> I love the crystal apple that Cindia gives
7. And many many more.. (o-o'')

Despite thse, some unexpected events still cropped up... I went under some sort of depression period because I found that I cant really adapted to jc life... so I kinda shut myself up... keep wondering why pple around me dont seem to be the way I thought they used to be...

Another was that my paternal grandpa passed away on the day when I have my grade 6 practical piano exam and Chem SPA assessment.... The following few days were bad for me... Still at that time, I am not really out of my depression yet...

Now, I found myself begin to be more distant from someone who has been in the same class with me for 5 years... I dont know whether I really dislike or hate her... But frankly speaking, I dont really know her well.. The pple whom I know well include Mandy, Cindia etc.. Those from my clique... So, I dont really know how to put into words...

All I could say is that emotional wounds that are inflicted on me unknownly may require quite a long time to heal... and hopefully, this year will be a better year for me... and hopefully, I will not cry that much this new year...

9:38 午後

It's 1st Jan 2006!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Goodbye year 2005!! Hello year 2006!!
*throw flowers around the room*
My New Year resolution is to do well for exams and may everyone be happy!!
Hopefully, I will be more of myself this year~
请多多指教!!
I love the following fanart!!!
TezukaFuji forever!!!
*love-struck*
P.S. This shall the cover of my new notebook!!

Here's another fanart of Tezuka and Fuji dressed in yukata!!! From holypark desu~~

12:00 午前